Author: rdwylder

In The Shadows

Chapter 1 Eden Malone knocked back her fourth scotch of the day, savouring the smoky flavour. It was barely noon, but so what? She was a woman who could hold her liquor, and she’d held it in many different shapes, forms, and sizes over the years. It wasn’t as though she had the slightest buzz going anyway. That was a privilege typically reserved for mid to late afternoon, but not today. The comforting burn down the back of her throat was like a lover’s caress, but she’d seen enough lives destroyed by one too many stupid decisions. She didn’t particularly care for endangering others or, more importantly, herself. Besides, she wanted to enjoy this afternoon’s drive and she’d already decided the only way she could do it was with a clear head. If asked, she would probably say that her attempt at sobriety was damn near heroic. Unfortunately, heroics aside, it didn’t seem to be a cure for the melancholy that was presently afflicting her. She capped the decanter and restored it to its rightful place in her amply stocked bar. She couldn’t quite put her finger on it but for some reason the apartment that had become her sanctuary over the years seemed to be closing in on her. It could be her recent reintroduction to fresh air and wide open spaces, or it could just as easily...

Read More

Never Enough

You think I don’t understand, But I do. You think I’m still in the dark, But I’ve already seen the light. I have seen myself through your eyes, And I know who you think I am. I am your safe place. I am your home away from home, When life gets in the way of living. I can make you smile when all you want to do is hide. I can make you laugh when all you want to do is cry. I can make you happy when all you want to do is stop feeling. I can make all these things happen for you, But I can’t make you see me For who I really am. Is it that unheard of? Falling for someone like me? I’ll never fit in with your circle of friends, But I’ll never make you feel like a stranger when you get home. I’ll never call just to hear the sound of your voice, But I’ll never make you feel like I don’t care. I’ll never make grand gestures in front of others, But I’ll never betray your confidence. Still, I’m never enough. So we’ll do the little dance that we always do. We’ll do the dance that I’ve done so many times before. I’ll be there for you when no one else is, Until someone else is, And I’ll be forgotten again...

Read More

Evelina

Someone is there, watching me. I can feel their presence. I’ve felt it for the past few days, but I haven’t caught even a glimpse of anyone. I should be scared, but I’m not. I don’t understand. Am I losing my mind? Has the disease that has ravaged my body made its way to my head? I can’t think anymore. I need some air. God, this place is beautiful. There’s something wild and untouched…what was that? I could have sworn I heard a noise, but there’s nothing there. My mind is playing tricks on me again. Or is it? There are hands around me…strong hands…comforting hands. I look down. Yet again, there is nothing there. But the feeling remains. I feel safe. I feel loved. I feel a hot breath on my neck. I arch into it and warm lips are pressed against my skin. I feel a shudder run through my body. I want more. I start to turn and……. I was jolted awake by the sudden stop of the carriage and may have fallen from my seat had it not been for my father’s steadying hand. I waved off his look of concern with a smile that did not reach my eyes. I did not want to be here. I was a child of London and I missed the noise and the bustle. Since the onset of...

Read More

Forget Me

Forget me. I know it won’t be difficult for you to do. You’re already half way there. I’m not sure what happened But I have my suspicions. Did you think I wanted more than I did? I do not love you. I have never loved you. Such things are beyond my capabilities, Broken vessel that I am. Most do not see it. Most believe I am something I am not. Perhaps that was why you mistook Me being me As an expression of interest. I will admit to being intrigued By the idea of loving And being loved. I know my limitations though, And I know when an idea must remain just an idea. I am foolish in a lot of ways, But not nearly foolish enough to believe That I have anything to offer. I cannot offer compromise. I have been alone too long to chance unsettling my ways. I cannot offer intimacy. I have always shied away from human touch. I cannot offer tenderness. I am often rough with my affections. I cannot offer love. I do not believe in it. What then did you assume I was offering you? You could have had my hand in friendship. Instead you chose to pull away Without so much as a word of warning. It’s not the first time. It won’t be the last. I’ve gotten used to my...

Read More

Mastery

They say the night hides a multitude of sins. Can it hide ours darling? Or is desire destined to find daylight? I don’t need lessons in morality from you. I know it’s right. I feel it’s right. But the things I want to do to you… Oh, they’re so wrong. I need to teach you lessons of an entirely different kind. Would that shock you, I wonder? Would you step back and look away? I think you may surprise yourself. You know you want me. You know I’ve seen the glances you’ve been sending my way. You know I know when you turn back to look at me, Because I’m looking at you too. Coy doesn’t suit you. You’re a woman used to taking what she wants. What makes this different? Come and take what you want Before someone else makes the move you won’t. You’ve gotten under my skin. I want to be between your legs. I want to touch you in all the places others have touched you In ways that they have never touched you. I want to be the reason for the sweat soaked sheets. I want to be the reason for the marks of possession. I want to be the reason for the sounds you make, But I don’t want to make you scream. Even an amateur can achieve such a task. Only a...

Read More