Author: rdwylder

A Perfect World Part 4: Anna’s Story

I love her. God help me but I love her. I have loved her for as long as I can remember…probably since the first time we met. It wasn’t romantic and there weren’t any of those supposed fireworks…we just literally bumped into each other. Okay, the fact is that I plowed into her because I was late for class. We both mumbled apologies and went on our respective ways. Somehow we just kept bumping into each other after that, not literally. Our friendship grew and I fell for her…hard. Who wouldn’t? She was beautiful, sexy, smart, funny, sensitive, and so much more. I could fill pages and pages with reasons why I loved her, but that isn’t why I’m writing this. Suffice to say that I lost my chance to Beth because I was a fool. You see, I had realized a while ago that I was gay, and I had already lost a few ‘friends’ because of that fact. I didn’t want her to be one of them. I was so concerned with how she would react to my sexual orientation that I never stopped to consider the possibility that she also lived on my little side of the fence. It stung when she came out to me and told me that she had found the woman of her dreams, but I got over it…or at least that’s...

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A Perfect World Part 3: Jesse’s Story

My name is Jessica McNamara but you can call me Jesse; everyone else does. This is my story to tell. I suppose I could be more eloquent. Certainly I have been accused of being overly-talkative on occasion, but I cannot bring myself to be excited by the events I am about to relate. It seems like a lifetime ago, but in reality only five years have passed since that dreaded phone-call. I remember that day in miniscule detail; the kind of memory that mocks you with its clarity. Let me tell you about it, but first I must tell you about my family at the time…my partner Sierra and her sister Cassidy. I first met Sierra about eight years ago on a blind date. I know, blind dates are usually disastrous affairs and this was no different. I was twenty-four at the time and to say that we didn’t hit it off would have been a serious understatement. It wasn’t that I didn’t find her attractive…those tight denim jeans were definitely doing her justice that night. Unfortunately, I also found her to be rude, ill-tempered and ill-mannered…not a winning combination in my book. I honestly thought that the end of our date would have been the last time I saw her. I was secretly, or perhaps not so secretly, relieved, and spent the rest of the night plotting the...

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A Perfect World, Part 2: Sierra’s Story

Where should I start? I once read that the best place to start is the beginning. Yes, the big, tough butch can read. Want to know something else? I’m a graphic artist. Now isn’t that a manly profession? But back to what I was saying before. Words have never come easily to me. Don’t get me wrong; I am rarely at a loss for words but discussing my feelings? That’s another story. Well, I suppose I should take that advice and start at the beginning so here goes. My name is Sierra Mackenzie and I am thirty-four years old. I have one sibling, my sister Cassidy who is six years my junior and the center of my world, besides my partner Jesse, of course. Our parents died ten years ago and I have had the pleasure, and sometimes infuriating task, of looking after Cassidy ever since. She is as stubborn as…well…I am, and we have had many disagreements over the years, but through it all we have shared a bond that has been tested but never been broken. I guess that’s why I went into a near panic when Anna called. Jesse and I had just finished dinner and she was looking forward to a night of romantic movies and good loving. True to form, I wanted to skip the movies. She refused to let my libido get the better of...

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A Perfect World, Part 1: Beth’s Story

My angel, There is so much that I want to say to you right now. I had this whole thing planned out in my head but somehow the words are escaping me. They usually do. I wish I could tell you that I don’t love you anymore; that I’ll be fine without you. I know I told you that before, but you must have realized that I lied angel. I will never be fine without you. I will never be fine with looking at you be with someone else. I know why you had to do it. He can give you the respectability and the acceptance that you need from the world. He can give you all the things that I never could. All that I could have given you was my love; my heart; my every waking moment. I know now that wasn’t enough for you. In a perfect world, you’d be with me. A part of me wants to hate you for taking the coward’s way out. Did you think that it was easy for me? Did you think I had nothing to lose by being with you? You’ve forgotten, haven’t you? I would have given up everything to make you happy. And now you want me to wait? You want me to be here just in case you come to your senses and decide that love...

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